Testimonial: Waiting Patiently

There are seasons that reap and seasons that need to be sown in order to experience the harvest. I’m going to be upfront with you, this season I’m in has been one of the toughest, and most painful seasons I have ever gone through. I went from having my ride or dies to pretty much only 1 person very close to me by my side. A call to full-time ministry and the exact opposite happens; loneliness, depression, no opportunities. Why does God orchestrate such bad things to happen? Well, He doesn’t. He allows such things to happen for the good of His children, there is always a reason behind the season. In the bible, Jesus is very clear that the enemy comes to steal, kill, and destroy, while Jesus comes to give life more abundantly (John 10:10). God has a much bigger purpose for these types of seasons. Before we jump into the harvests and all the promises God has for us, it’s going to take a little more than just expecting… it’s gonna require lots and lots of patience.

I’m going to be real with you guys, I came straight from the womb the most impatient person I know. You could take 5 minutes with something I asked you to do and I would get frustrated. Now I’m a new creation, in the process of sanctification. When I received the call to full-time ministry. I was just a baby Christian, I had 0 ideas what it would require and to this day I still don’t know much, but let me tell you: God equips where He calls. That's what I mean when I tell you, PATIENCE IS REQUIRED. I thought you could just jump right in that water, but why would I do that when I had no idea what I was getting myself into? You see, God EQUIPS where He’s called you. Which means when He calls you, you most likely are not ready yet, not equipped for it YET. In this process, He will use people to grow you, He will redefine you, and most certainly mold you into the person He has created us to be; in other words, He will equip us.

In this season that I am going through, promises have been made by God and I fully expect them with my entire being to pass, but that does not dismiss my part. I too, have to grow in Him and build my faith AND allow Jesus to make changes in my heart. This process has been honestly so painful, but SO beautiful when you see the fruits of the finished product. I struggled with patience, which made me totally rethink His will for me. I thought about doing and going to certain places He said no to because of my impatience. I started to think of my own way of doing it faster because I simply could not stand the fact that from the outset, it looked as if nothing was going on, but inwardly, MANY changes about myself were being molded. God simply wants to change and mold us in order to fulfill His promises over your life to give the most honor and glory to Him and only Him. Always make sure to pray about major decisions in your life before you do it, God may have a different plan for you, and it will be fulfilled regardless.

“If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.” (James 1:5)

Regarding the pain and struggles, do NOT allow yourself to believe Satan’s lies. He is the father of lies and there is NO truth in him (John 8:44). I was going through a time recently, that I allowed myself to get so beat up I was beginning to dwell in this nasty depression and anxiety. I was beginning to feel like I had to do everything myself and all at the same time, it overwhelmed me. I started losing my fire, I started getting physically sick and was in this depression mode. BUT God!! Let me tell you, God will send you words, messages through people, random signs, His holy presence, to pick you back up on your feet. HE. NEVER. FAILS! He knows the exact time, and exact moment to remind you of His promises. At the same time, He will be molding you with more patience, and trust in Him and His word over your life. Allow yourself to forgive others, to care for them and love them even while you are waiting. The pain is worth becoming more like HIM, after all.

“Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” (James 1:4)

Father, I pray for whoever reads this blog specifically for them, that you would continue to work in their hearts and stir their spirit. I pray for whoever needs patience and trust, you will graciously lavish them with the things they NEED in order to fulfill the promises you have for them. May you give them your peace, not as the world gives but as you freely grant us, and Lord give them the rest they need in your plans. Continue to express Your wonderful love to us and give us wisdom over the plans you have for us. I thank you for your mercy over our lives as we forgive those who hurt us and thank you SO much for caring and taking care of us the way that You do. We love you and are forever grateful for what You did for us. Your will be done, Lord, not mine. In Jesus’ name, I pray, amen.

“Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for Him;
Do not fret because of him who prospers in his way,
Because of the man who brings wicked schemes to pass.
8 Cease from anger, and forsake wrath;
Do not fret—it only causes harm.
9 For evildoers shall be cut off;
But those who wait on the Lord,
They shall inherit the earth.” (Psalm 37:7-9)

Written by Alexandra Alonzo