But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus (Phil 4:19). As I read that scripture, I’m amazed at how true God's word is. Growing up, I bypassed a lot of God’s word, because I had no interest in what he was trying to tell me. I didn’t have a true desire to grow in him so I got off track; I walked off the path to my destiny. I found myself venturing into a wilderness of darkness that would eventually bring me pain, hurt, financial disability, depression, insecurities, and a whole lot of unhappiness. I didn’t know what being prosperous meant; to be honest I don’t believe I ever came across the word prosperity until recently. As this word became apart of my vocabulary, I thought it only meant being prosperous with your finances. I had no idea being prosperous went far beyond our wallets. We plan our own road map then stamp it with God's approval without ever consulting "HIM." Then when life doesn't go as plan; we want to question God but we made the decision to write our own blueprint. God is the author/creator over our lives; he signs the dotted line, not us. (Gen 1-26-28) The process started in Albany, GA. I was 23 when I moved, I was excited for this new journey because I thought I was following Jesus not realizing I was drifting from him. I was still in the routine of attending service at this particular church every other day. Just going through the motions. I didn’t have a personal relationship with Jesus. I had a parental relationship with him, meaning my relationship was based off of my parent’s relationship. I was good at pretending that life was great even though I was miserable. The process has a way of making you feel a certain way especially when you’re stubborn about reading your bible and submitting your all unto Christ.
I was ready to walk out on my faith to follow a guy when God said “For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end (Jeremiah 29:11). My world that I built came crashing down when I found out that the guy that I thought I loved; and was ready to move to another city with was cheating on me. He made plans that didn’t include me but it included another woman. I was hurt, I was confused, and I was upset. I felt really stupid because I was losing myself. This whole time when I thought God gave up on me he was still holding my hand. Out of all the rebellion, God still wanted me and he still pursued me.
“Before I formed thee in the belly; and before thou camest forth out of the womb I sanctified thee, and I ordained thee a prophet unto the nations (Jeremiah 1:5). By this time I gave my heart back to Christ 100% and I gave a vow to Christ keeping myself pure for my husband. Within a year’s time frame I grew closer to Jesus. Through the darkness of the tunnel that I decided to travel through, I was beginning to see a light. God finally opens the doors for me to move to Atlanta, GA. I moved here August 2013 and when I closed the door on Albany I had no idea the world I was walking into but God knew. I joined Unashamed Impact where I met Kiara Cunningham, and Moses Sands Jr. I also made up my mind to too join Embassy International Worship Center. A church that didn’t end with E.P.C (Evangelistic Pentecostal Church) I really stepped out of my comfort zone because for once I wanted to be happy for myself.
I wanted to walk down the path that God laid out for me. It wasn’t long after before Mr. Sands started to pursue me. Yes ladies he came for me, I was busy getting lost finding Jesus. With saying yes to Moses I found myself going through another process which was really hard for me but I knew it was Jesus and I was making the right decision. Even though we all have different paths some people won’t agree with it. My family didn’t agree with me dating Moses so I went through a season of rejection. I was rejected from the very same people who I thought was my brothers and sisters in the church, and my own dad stopped talking to me. See that’s the darkness but light always shines through darkness. I found myself being prosperous when God blessed me with a church family that not only accepted me but accepted Moses as well. We’re not treated as outcasts but we’re loved. Since being in Atlanta I have experience the good and the bad but my good has always out weighed my bad. I learned to be content with my situation. Philippians 4:11 “Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content. With being content I found out the true meaning behind “I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me (Philippians 4:13).
My journey hasn’t been easy but I found my peace in Jesus. Getting lost throughout the sentences, and paragraphs of his word. The Tanesha two years ago is not the same Tanesha today. I am loved, I am wanted, and I am pursued. My testimony is much more detailed but at the end of the day through all the pain, and hurt I endured I found myself prosperous when I turned my focus on Jesus.
Author: Tanesha Richard
Desperately seeking a deeper relationship with my savior Jesus Christ. My mission is to become that virtuous woman God has called me to be. Strength and honour are her clothing; and she shall rejoice in time to come (Proverbs 31:25).
Tanesha Richardson is a South Florida native who is passionate about expressing her heart on paper. She’s currently pursuing her love for writing as a freelance writer. She’s has a heart for women finding their true identity in Christ. Her favorite quote is “True beauty emanates from a woman who boldly and unabashedly knows who she is in Christ."