“Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving.”
– Colossians 3:23-24
I had my bags packed and I was off to start this new adventure! I was excited, nervous and scared but I knew that this was what I wanted and God had finally answered my prayer. This was my job, this was my moment and this was my new season. All I had to do was embrace it.
After a few weeks of training and multiple exams, it was official, I had the job and I was relocating to a new city to start my new life. Now, almost two years later, I find myself uncomfortable, uneasy and ultimately unfaithful. I am uncomfortable because I am longing for a change but I am too scared to make a move, too scared to step out on faith and ultimately being unfaithful in my commitment to trust God in every season. So what do you do when God finally gives you the desires of your heart and you find yourself years down the line being unfaithful and ungrateful? I struggled with this question for the past few months, I was losing sight of my calling and I was giving up on my vision.
I wish I could give you the answer to fixing your issue or your problem but God is still working on me. I am reminded of the scripture in Colossians chapter three, we are given the instructions for our Christian households. We are reminded that in everything we do we must do it with all our heart.
If God opened a door for you and gave you exactly what you wanted then you must be fully committed. Being unfaithful, uneasy and uncomfortable is the easy way out; it’s an easy excuse to present to our father. But what if God took away everything you asked for and gave you the bare minimum not because he didn’t love you but to show you that your ungratefulness was more of a hindrance than a blessing? How much more would we have to depend on God if we didn’t have space or the opportunity to come up with excuses? The thing I love about our father is that he sees our excuses and our unwillingness to be grateful and still chooses to bless us. He loves us in ways we couldn’t even imagine and he still continues to provide for us.
God answered my prayer and now it’s my job to not only praise him but to ensure that I am found giving my all in everything he has assigned my hands to do. I no longer have time to half way complete assignments and make excuses for my procrastination. My unwillingness to grow or change must take a backseat when Christ steps into my life. I have learned that my unfaithfulness ultimately delayed my next blessing, why would Christ continue to bless me if I couldn't be faithful to the little he has given me?
I am grateful for this season and for my uncomfortable moments; it’s in this moment that I realize that there is always room for growth and improvement. I embrace this season and will take this time to do some introspection.
When God answers your prayer, it’s your opportunity to walk confidently in the path he has placed before you.
I believe in you!
Patrice (Trice) Camm hails from Raleigh, NC. From a young age she was passionate for writing but never really committed to it. She found herself starting a project but never completing it. As she grew older, she realized that writing was a great form of release. Often times we are so focused on seeking God for our purpose that we fail to realize that our purpose has been sitting there in front of our face the whole time. Although blogging is just a small part of what God has planned for her life, she is excited to know that she is using her gift.
"If just one person feels inspired or comes to know Christ by something I have written then my job is complete!"