Sometimes I feel like I can't do this. I can't press through. Can't see any good happening. I'm so adjusted to things going wrong that it's uncomfortable for love, laughter, happiness, joy, peace, & success to be present in my life.
Is this how you're feeling right now? Does your life seem like it's a constant walk in a dark cave, alone? Do you constantly look for things to be wrong when it's actually going 50 times better than ever? You prayed for this moment, right? You cried numerous nights alone for this moment. You questioned, pleaded, & isolated yourself on behalf of this moment.
And here it is. THE MOMENT. The moment of joy, peace, genuine laughter, sunshine, and peace after turmoil, despair, pain, backstabbing defeats, and agony.
I'm right in this season of things going well in my life yet I question the good because of how bad it was in the past. I just can't seem to shake the negative off. I feel like at any given moment the darkness will appear back into my life.
However, on a ride home from work, I had prayer time with God. It was a beautiful day after two weeks of cloudy and stormy weather. It reminded me of the past seasons of darkness in my life. I looked around (at stoplights) and realized how beautiful the sky was. Internally, I looked at how amazing my life is now despite of the past.
Now, I could have complained about it being too hot or the sun blinding me. In reality, I could have complained about my job or how tired I was. I chose to not rob myself of the blessings right in front of me. I realized that I was created for such a time as this. YOU were created for such a time as this. I’m speaking to the people who survived depression, suicidal thoughts and attempts, being taken advantage of sexually, mentally, and emotionally; friends constantly leaving your life, broken family structures, always feeling like the underdog, and feeling worthless after bad decisions or mistakes. I’m talking to you.
Your life is so valuable right now. Your purpose is so much bigger than what your mind can comprehend right now. You just need to activate your mustard seed faith and inner warrior KING or QUEEN mindset. You’re never too young or old to activate it. All you need is to TRUST God! Declare your spot at his feet, lay down your troubles, fears, doubts, and surrender to the present moment. Don’t sabotage your present happiness because of fear of your past. Don’t rob yourself of the very thing you prayed for. God doesn’t play mind games! He inspires to transform your mind instead. Always remember that God is close when you’re feeling low and left behind. God wants you to enjoy THIS moment. You have one choice to make.
Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is--his good, pleasing and perfect will.
He replied, "Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there,' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." - Matthew 17:20
Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, 4 and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, 5 and hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us. - Romans 5:3-5
Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things. – Philippians 4:8
I pray whoever read this will pick himself or herself up from blocking their present joys of life. God truly desires us to live in the Light, not darkness. Each day, take some time and breathe in that beautiful essence of His Holy Spirit. Reclaim your control over the moment!
Until the next journey,
Written By Camilla Harris